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viernes, 25 de septiembre de 2020

The sickness.

 Primero en youtube: Dijiste que desactivaste todas tus cuentas (twitter, Facebook, Instagram, tiktok)

Encima me preguntaste “como sabes a quien sigo? Entras a mi cuenta?”

Stop saying “if you care about me do this” I  don’t do that

Luego en email dijiste: Que desactivaste todo pero que Instagram abriste por mostrarles una foto a tus “coworkers” y escribiste “desactivado” por si yo veía. Porque no me dijiste en tu email o en youtube “ey paso esto por eso mi cuenta volví a abrir”

Aparte de que cuando me dijiste que desactivaste por segunda vez cambiaste tu @ esperando que yo no me de cuenta? Nunca desactivaste hasta ayer si es que no cambiaste nomas tu @ otra vez.

Me volviste a decir también “vos entras a mis cuentas?” tipo ¿??

Y si, seguro que estas “disgustado” por Jane, por eso cuando viste su cuenta estando acá conmigo, en mi casa, un día antes de irte pusiste un tweet diciendo “never realice how much impact you could have on a person until you see them a few years later” and I still remember the times I discover you and her were talking, that would be les if im not in the picture? Jusy answer that question by yourself.

Y nunca te acuse directamente de hablar con ella, dije que uni todos los cables nomas y dijiste “ay como me vas a acusar de eso” y cada que mentis te haces del ofendido justo como en esa frase.

Y primero me decis “todo lo que hago es dormir, llego del trabajo y duermo porque me cansa” y después me decis “invito a amigos” encima son amigas y ni tenes las bolas para decir amigas y diciendo otra vez “y tienen novio” tipo tanta cola de paja tenes en serio?

Y decis “ya respondi tus preguntas ahora desbloqueame” tipo no, no respondiste nada, todo lo que hiciste fue darme excusas otra vez, cuentos.

I quit my profile picture of my email.

Then you say “im going to delete everything if its make ME feel safer”? like hell no, you have the face to keep lying after all the times you said “im going to inactivate my accounts” and then do nothing. Sin mencionar que siempre que propones hacer estas estupideces después te vas corriendo a contarle a alguien “ey yo elimine mis cuentas para que ella se sienta segura” culpándome a mi siempre de todo y no diciendo “yo hice esto porque ya no sabia como tener su atención”

“señoras del trabajo”

Y me imagino que cuando intentas desactivar te dice “podes desactivar en tantos días” y no tengas que entrar todos los días a probar

Y para que tenes las apps si ni usas?

Que me muestres si te depilaste  o no no es ninguna prueba para mi

Encima me mandas screens? Para que si sabes bien que no es eso lo que yo quiero? Y sabes como soy y que voy a encontrar cualquier cosa porque no sabes ni mentir y ya vi luego que pusiste tu @ de ig como la anterior y no era esa @ antes de que desactives. Deja de mentir.

Ni siquiera estaba hablando de que ibas a algún lado o lo que sea, ni estaba hablando de la app ni nada de life asique stop.

Encima me enviasun mail con un screen donde sale solo el juego y la app de life y luego otro mail donde están todas tus otras apps ¿??? Why?

Y como ultimo me dejas diciendo “voy a renunciar” porque siempre haces estas cosas desesperadas y estúpidas solo para hacerme sentir culpable.

miércoles, 23 de septiembre de 2020

Sick.

 The signals are that you never inactivate any account as you said but that's ok I guess, I just don't know why you need to lie that much. Then you follow again this Fatima and its ok, its just weird but wharever. I just want to tell you i'm not stupid anymore. 

I was calm before all of this, I was thinking maybe you were doing things right but you only were saying "oh you hate me, I deserve it" and you supposse  to work to be better.

And then you were making all this histories again about me being happy or putting happy songs? Why? And saying I don't care and I never cared? Why tho? That's why I said please tell me if you want to move on,  si I can't stop killing myself with saddness bc even if I'm trying to be better for you that doesn't matter because you don't make any effort. And btw, I was waiting for your first "monday letter" and you never send anything. It was even a weed and you go and as soon as you can you find anyone to be with or wharever you want to do. I know you will do this saying "oh you making me overthink" the only thing you overthink is how I find out everything, that's the only thing you want to talk with me. But let me tell you that "The truth always comes to light"

I'm sorry, I don't want this stupid game anymore. Even not talking or "not having contact" with you (because THIS playlist thing is still contact) still has me so stress out and panicking. Thinking "Is he making all things right? Is he being loyal? Is he doing well?" and you with you follows or unfollows or following someone, all of that sucks. I leave social because of you, for you to stop overthinking about the followers or likes and then I stay with that sickness. I want to stop a time ago but when you start making all this scenes about me putting "happy songs" and then saying "you never cared about me" I know you were saying all this things because you were making something and don't want to feel bad about it so that's why you blame on me, to feel less gulty. Then I think I have codependency on you, like adicction or something and I have to let you go and set you free to do everything you want without feeling preassure or need to run away from me. And me without thinking "is he doing well? is he loyal?". Because that's not love about.

It's so sad until today I want you in my life but I don't understand this is not real, this movie is not from us. This isn't love. I repeat all this words and can't understand any of them because I know the first thing I will do if I see you is hug you and kiss you. And after all the signals I still want to hear your voice saying " I love you" again.

I saw too a tweet from Jane speaking so explicitly about you and there I connect everything. Because just today your ig account just disappear, then Jane put all her account private. After a day she tweet this thing about you. And I know its about you. 

I don't want to talk anymore... I feel this just will end with my entire life because I can't live anymore. I'm so desperate for be with you and you don't see it, you never see how much I give for you, I give everything. My mind, my heart is crazy about you after all and I hate me for being so stupid. I don't know what are you going to say after this but I can have any discuss anymore. You're free to live your life as you want Marcelo, I'm tired of trying to take you in the "right place". You don't have to think about me coming again in your life or chasing you on social or wharever. I'm not going to do any of that, you can live your life in peace.

I'm going to erase all this bullshit next week.